tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3196404387912484970.post1391844322180341948..comments2023-04-03T02:31:17.536-07:00Comments on Brian Baxter: Dear God 2Brian Baxterhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05834342076071299847noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3196404387912484970.post-90295291404528259632009-07-05T06:19:58.334-07:002009-07-05T06:19:58.334-07:00Your heart is ok now (your twitter stats)... it lo...Your heart is ok now (your twitter stats)... it looks like god listens... i hope you will be feeling better and better from now. M.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3196404387912484970.post-63934596801345146362009-07-04T12:44:27.536-07:002009-07-04T12:44:27.536-07:00Dear Brian,
oh how well I understand what you mean...Dear Brian,<br />oh how well I understand what you mean by loneliness and the lack of support system...I am agoraphobic and addicted to xanax, and I have ONLY internet friends. My "real" friends have their own lives and they don't give a d**n if I'm dead or alive - trust me, I learned about this the hardest way possible (a suicide attempt followed by my Mother almost dying in her suicide attempt - she's Bipolar). When I was in the hospital after the OD, not a single one of them visited me.<br />I'd been in a long relationship, but it of course ended because of the fact that my then future in-laws couldn't face up to the fact that I'm "NUTS" (as my BF's father nicely put it!)...<br /><br />How can one start building a support system when people turn away from you?<br />You see, I'm thousands of miles away from you, but suffer almost exactly the same (I'm in Poland).<br />And the docs don't care when I complain about my constant dyspnea (in a big way!), my headaches, my inability to eat because of high levels of anxiety...<br />I think one day without all this would be a true blessing. one single day. But we won't get it.<br />IwonaIwonanoreply@blogger.com